At times I have been out and about and witnessed many a Bloggable sight and had to let them go due to having forgotten the camera. But mostly I've been having an extra-bloggial affair with my journal which cops the unrestrained out pourings of this often over loaded mind. How I wish that the concept of Dumbledore's Pensieve could be manifested in reality - a safe vessel in which to store thoughts to be dealt with at a more convenient time.
Here are some thoughts that are safe for public display.....
1. Rinpoche is here. We will be on retreat with him as of next Friday. I'm looking forward to sitting with him. Just that. Swimming in his presence.
2. Currently negotiating Shared Care of beloved child. My least favourite thing to do in this life to date. Am counting on the swim in the above mentioned ocean of Grace and Stillness to absorb these qualities enough to bring back and apply them to that task. Fortunately K and I are able to talk respectfully regardless of the degree of difficulty involved.
3. Said beloved child has become all of a sudden extremely perspicacious (thank god for spell check...)and can fortunately express some of his feelings about this matter (2.)
4. My brother makes a very, very fine Rose (as in 'Rosay') which he has named Jose (as in 'Hhhhosay')which I am enjoying as I type and which may have a welcome soporific effect (not enough sleeping going on of late due to non-existence of Pensieve).
5. I had the trawl of all trawls at Savers on Tuesday - 2 skirts, one pair of trousers, a very hot (as in 'hhhhot') retro frock, 2 jumpers (one, a little bit Sophia Loren), and 4 tops and I only stopped there because I was having a hypoglycemic meltdown due to skipping lunch because I was in there for HOURS.
6. Just spent two very solitary weeks without the neighbours (on holiday). It wasn't until Beau, Flash the dog and I bounced around their car on ,barking and wagging that I realised how lonely I had been. It was however Good For Me, Soul Searching, Character Building etc etc not to avoid it.
7. Tibetan Monks are working on a sand mandala in town, marking what seems to be a time of healing. Life in these parts seems to be not so much back to normal but continuing with added purpose and acts of great generosity and community spirit.
Listening to PJ Harvey; White Chalk and The Danque; a Compilation of West African Funk.
3 comments:
You sound so calm and balanced.
And here is me having twenty kinds of a fit at any given time of day.
If you could send me some calm, I will gladly receive it!
take care. you are amazing.
Enjoy the "swimming". I have a huge sense of regard for both you and K to be able to manage to communicate around the difficult issue of shared care. I know you both love and care for Beau, he is a lucky little boy to have two beautiful parents where ever it is that they happen to reside. Love to you both, please let K know I send my love to him too!
Hello Lovely lady,
Have a wonderful time with Rinpoche. I am sure you will find strength and perspective to help you through this transition.
A time of healing indeed.
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